Nostalgia- My Memories of 2019
With 2019 coming to an end another decade has passed in my life, a decade in which I completed Elementary school, High school and started college.
2019 was another year which came & went in a wave and there were some months of 2019, which I don't want to look back at all. For me, 2019 did not start on a high note, as per my knowledge I was on the verge of depression with no friends and no one to help me over academics. I was someone who felt out of place even when I was sitting in my own class, on the very same desk I used to sit every day. There were some menial things which no one would like to be reminded of but my fate was so bad that I was reminded of these daily.
In this time period, I was blessed with one faithful friend towards whom I used to turn to for every small thing that happened to me. She was always there for me, always listening to my rants, but over the course of time, I felt that I was becoming a burden on her and started distancing myself from her, because of which I was again overburdened by my emotions as the only place my emotions could come out were in front of me and I was drenched & exhausted of handling my own stuff on a daily basis.
Listening to random motivational videos had become my diet after distancing myself from her and that is how I approached the boards. As the dreadful days of my first exam approached I had to forget everything because now I had to turn the tables, as I had to prove all those people who felt that to pass with distinction was never possible for me. This was because all throughout the year I was an average student. I gave my exams with full confidence and after the last exam, I went on a date with myself. I sat down for a movie and also had a moment of introspection and retrospection. It was then that I realised that one should never cry over spilt milk, what's done is done and no one can undo anything.
That very moment I decided that this chapter has to be closed once and for all. I started looking for topics and activities that calmed me that's when I started my photography page and started participating in Model United Nations, these were the only two things that really calmed me down. I did this over a period of four months of my vacation as I strongly believed in the famous proverb, " AN EMPTY MIND IS A DEVIL'S WORKSHOP."
It is rightly said that once you start doing what you like, time passes by quickly. My results were out in a very unexpected manner, one fine afternoon, sitting in front of the TV after my Charted Accountancy class a news flash of "CBSE CLASS 12 RESULTS BEING DECLARED", was more than enough to make my body go cold even at a maximum room temperature of 39 degrees Celcius. I assured myself that nothing will go wrong and with this confidence, I checked my results and to be really honest I was on cloud 9, as I had performed on a level that no one could have imagined in there wildest of dreams. After this exciting moment came the next important test of my life; getting into a prestigious college, but my fate for some reason made me end up in South Indian Education Society College of Arts, Science & Commerce, Nerul.
My College life started and in a few days, I made some friends and then came the biggest highlight of the Year, Rotaract, because I saw this as an opportunity to be my old self, and somehow felt that maybe this was the breakthrough that I really longed for to get back on terms with my life. The first event I attended was Zonal Meet, where I was completely clueless about how to approach people and start a conversation. But things weren't that bad as everyone came and talked to me as if we were old buddies.
The next important lesson of my life, which I learned this year was that the literal term of Vibe check and no awkwardness would only come when I am with someone, whom I can trust blindly and can share the most intimate details of my life. I really thank my lucky stars because that someone was the same person whom I had seen a long time back in my life and she had caught my eye back then as well, though it took some time for me to recollect and go down the memory lane and establish the fact that yes she was the one. I give her the whole credit for being so understanding, she in a way is the unsung hero who helped me to be who I am today. Though I am still immature and burden her with my unwanted tantrums & petty issues on a daily basis, she still stays there and always supports me with her witty jokes and motivational speeches.
In the end, I would just like to say that last year was a mix of both joyful & sorrowful memories and the only thing I learned from last year is - Take everything one day at a time and that if you are frustrated or irritated by something on a particular day, forget it on the next day because if you don't shift gears quickly then your future self is going to laugh on your present self.
By
Rtr. Jyotirmay Chitale
2019 was another year which came & went in a wave and there were some months of 2019, which I don't want to look back at all. For me, 2019 did not start on a high note, as per my knowledge I was on the verge of depression with no friends and no one to help me over academics. I was someone who felt out of place even when I was sitting in my own class, on the very same desk I used to sit every day. There were some menial things which no one would like to be reminded of but my fate was so bad that I was reminded of these daily.
In this time period, I was blessed with one faithful friend towards whom I used to turn to for every small thing that happened to me. She was always there for me, always listening to my rants, but over the course of time, I felt that I was becoming a burden on her and started distancing myself from her, because of which I was again overburdened by my emotions as the only place my emotions could come out were in front of me and I was drenched & exhausted of handling my own stuff on a daily basis.
Listening to random motivational videos had become my diet after distancing myself from her and that is how I approached the boards. As the dreadful days of my first exam approached I had to forget everything because now I had to turn the tables, as I had to prove all those people who felt that to pass with distinction was never possible for me. This was because all throughout the year I was an average student. I gave my exams with full confidence and after the last exam, I went on a date with myself. I sat down for a movie and also had a moment of introspection and retrospection. It was then that I realised that one should never cry over spilt milk, what's done is done and no one can undo anything.
That very moment I decided that this chapter has to be closed once and for all. I started looking for topics and activities that calmed me that's when I started my photography page and started participating in Model United Nations, these were the only two things that really calmed me down. I did this over a period of four months of my vacation as I strongly believed in the famous proverb, " AN EMPTY MIND IS A DEVIL'S WORKSHOP."
It is rightly said that once you start doing what you like, time passes by quickly. My results were out in a very unexpected manner, one fine afternoon, sitting in front of the TV after my Charted Accountancy class a news flash of "CBSE CLASS 12 RESULTS BEING DECLARED", was more than enough to make my body go cold even at a maximum room temperature of 39 degrees Celcius. I assured myself that nothing will go wrong and with this confidence, I checked my results and to be really honest I was on cloud 9, as I had performed on a level that no one could have imagined in there wildest of dreams. After this exciting moment came the next important test of my life; getting into a prestigious college, but my fate for some reason made me end up in South Indian Education Society College of Arts, Science & Commerce, Nerul.
My College life started and in a few days, I made some friends and then came the biggest highlight of the Year, Rotaract, because I saw this as an opportunity to be my old self, and somehow felt that maybe this was the breakthrough that I really longed for to get back on terms with my life. The first event I attended was Zonal Meet, where I was completely clueless about how to approach people and start a conversation. But things weren't that bad as everyone came and talked to me as if we were old buddies.
The next important lesson of my life, which I learned this year was that the literal term of Vibe check and no awkwardness would only come when I am with someone, whom I can trust blindly and can share the most intimate details of my life. I really thank my lucky stars because that someone was the same person whom I had seen a long time back in my life and she had caught my eye back then as well, though it took some time for me to recollect and go down the memory lane and establish the fact that yes she was the one. I give her the whole credit for being so understanding, she in a way is the unsung hero who helped me to be who I am today. Though I am still immature and burden her with my unwanted tantrums & petty issues on a daily basis, she still stays there and always supports me with her witty jokes and motivational speeches.
In the end, I would just like to say that last year was a mix of both joyful & sorrowful memories and the only thing I learned from last year is - Take everything one day at a time and that if you are frustrated or irritated by something on a particular day, forget it on the next day because if you don't shift gears quickly then your future self is going to laugh on your present self.
By
Rtr. Jyotirmay Chitale
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